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People will do anything... To avoid facing their own Soul...

  • Writer: Marcus Nikos
    Marcus Nikos
  • Jun 6
  • 15 min read

hey don't talk about it but you feel it

late at night when no one's watching

when the world goes quiet and something

inside you does not your phone is in

your hand your mind is restless your

body's alive but your soul feels missing

so you chase something you scroll you

click you fantasize not because you are

bad not even because you are lustful but

because you are empty you tell yourself

it's normal

just biology just stress just a release

but deep down you know better because

even while you were chasing it you are

not really there your body moves but

your heart's somewhere else and when

it's over the silence comes back the

ache returns and the guilt it does not

come from morality it comes from

meaninglessness you have felt this

before not just after but during even

when it's intense wild thrilling you

feel distant from yourself you tell

yourself it's about pleasure but what if

it's not what if it's never been about

the body what if it's about the wound

the one you never got to speak the one

no one ever saw the one that did not

bleed but hollowed you out quietly carl

Jung once wrote "People will do anything

no matter how absurd to avoid facing

their own soul." What if lust is not

about desire but about escape escape

from boredom from loneliness from shame

from the unbearable silence of your

unmet self you don't just want her you

want to be held you want to be known you

want to be seen without having to

perform but instead you chase pixels

bodies moments a fleeting surge of

aliveness that dies as fast as it came

and what's left the same void the same

ache the same unanswered questions you

are not chasing her you are chasing the

part of you she reminds you of because

the real craving is not for touch it's

for truth it's not about lust it's about

loss the loss of connection to your body

to your purpose to your soul and here's

the most brutal truth of all lust is not

the enemy it's the symptom it's your

soul trying to get your attention in the

only language it knows how because

there's a wound inside you one you never

asked for one you never wanted but one

you have carried long enough and if

you're honest really honest you know

exactly what I'm talking about this

video is not about shaming you it's

about revealing what Carl Young believed

was the real meaning behind your desire

not sin not weakness but soul hunger and

in the next few minutes we'll explore

exactly what that hunger is trying to

show you why your cravings hurt and how

every act of lust is secretly a message

from the deepest part of you the part of

you that's not trying to feel pleasure

it's trying to feel whole again you have

been told it's natural that it's just

part of being human that lust is desire

and desire is life but what if that's

not true what if what you are feeling is

not lust at all what if it's hunger not

the kind that comes from the body but

the kind that comes from the soul the

kind that aches beneath your chest when

the world gets quiet the kind that no

screen no fantasy no climax can ever

satisfy because here's the truth no one

tells you lust is rarely about sex it's

about escape it's about the unbearable

emptiness that creeps in when you are no

longer distracted it's about numbing the

ache of disconnection not just from

others but from yourself every time you

reach for another hit another body

another high you are not reaching for

pleasure you are reaching for proof

proof that you're still wanted still

alive still capable of feeling something

but what if the reason you crave that

rush is because you have been running on

empty for years there's a wound inside

you maybe you can't name it maybe you

pretend it's not there but it shows up

anyway in your restlessness in your

endless scrolling in the fantasies that

never satisfy in the quiet moments that

feel like suffocation because what you

call lust might just be your soul's way

of screaming "I'm starving feed me

something real." Let me tell you a story

there was a man by all appearances he

had it together charismatic ambitious

always chasing women he believed what he

felt was desire he told himself he was

in control that every conquest was a win

but late at night when no one was

watching he would feel it that void he

would lie there next to someone who once

thrilled him and feel nothing no

connection no warmth just a dull ache he

could not explain he kept going kept

chasing kept performing until one day he

asked himself a terrifying question what

if I don't actually want her what if I

just don't want to feel alone and that

changed everything because he realized

he was using her body as a distraction

from his own emptiness he did not want

love he wanted escape he wanted

something to cover the silence inside

him he was not chasing her he was

fleeing himself that's what most people

don't understand lust in our world has

become a drug it offers the illusion of

power of freedom of being wanted but

underneath it's a dopamine loop trigger

fantasy release numbness repeat and the

more you feed it the less alive you feel

because the pleasure is not real it's

not rooted in connection in intimacy in

meaning it's rooted in performance you

play a role you follow a script you

climax and collapse and then you're back

where you started alone with yourself

still hungry still empty carl Young did

not see lust as a moral failure he saw

it as a spiritual signal a flare from

the unconscious a warning from the soul

because when you're truly whole you

don't chase you don't cling you don't

search for proof in someone else's body

you become desire itself you radiate

from within you no longer need to

consume to feel alive because you are

already connected to something deeper

but to get there you have to stop lying

to yourself you have to admit that the

craving is not random that the endless

lust is not a need it's a mask a mask

hiding the fact that you have been

disconnected for far too long so the

next time you feel the pull stop don't

repress it don't act on it blindly just

ask "What am I really craving right now

not the image not the surge not the

escape but the real thing the real

need." And you might hear an answer that

surprises you not sex not release but

something softer deeper older something

that sounds like I want to be held i

want to be known i want to come back to

myself because maybe just maybe you have

never been lustful you have just been

hungry for something real there's a part

of you you have never met not directly

not face to face but it shows up every

night you scroll every time you crave

every time you break a promise you swore

you would keep carl Jung called it the

shadow not evil not monstrous just

exiled it's the part of you you have

tried to forget because it made others

uncomfortable the part that wanted too

much felt too deeply needed to be loved

without earning it so you buried it

pushed it down dressed it in silence and

called it control but the shadow never

disappears it waits and when you are

tired or alone or numb it speaks and the

voice it uses sounds a lot like lust you

think it's desire but it's not it's your

shadow whispering through your cravings

notice me feel me let me exist but

because you have forgotten how to speak

that language you misinterpret it you

think you want her you think you need

release you think your body is the

problem but the ache it's not in your

body it's in your soul you have mistaken

longing for integration as lust for

stimulation and the more you run from it

the more power it gains because that's

what repressed energy does it doesn't

vanish it mutates it becomes addictive

compulsive uncontrollable young said

"People will do anything no matter how

absurd to avoid facing their own soul

and what could be more absurd than

thinking another body will heal a wound

that lives in your psyche here's how the

cycle works you feel lonely not a

loneliness of company but of identity a

disconnection from your essence so you

crave you chase you surrender to the

pattern the hit comes the moment of

intensity a second of false

transcendence then it dies and you feel

it the guilt the disappointment the

quiet shame and to escape that feeling

you scroll again lust guilt numbness

repeat this is the shadow seduced loop

it does not just feed on lust it feeds

on your forgetfulness forgetfulness of

who you are of what you need of the

voice inside you that is not craving

dopamine it's craving wholeness here's

the truth you're not addicted to sex

you're addicted to escape and every time

you run from the ache you teach your

nervous system that you can't handle

stillness but the shadow does not want

to destroy you it wants to reunite with

you the part of you that still weeps in

silence wants to be seen not fixed not

shamed seen because what you call lust

is often the repressed cry of a child

who was not met with love when he needed

it most so now you search for warmth not

because you're a sinner but because you

were never taught how to hold your own

pain this is what Jung meant by

integration not becoming perfect not

deleting desire but turning toward the

parts of yourself you have disowned and

saying "I'm listening now." Because when

you silence the shadow you don't become

free you become fractured you move

through life pretending performing

pleasing while your real self sits in

the dark waiting to be remembered lust

is not your flaw it's your flashlight

it's the soul's way of pointing to the

place inside you that was left behind so

the next time it rises don't shame it

don't numb it don't run from it pause

feel the pull the ache the heat and

instead of asking "How do I get rid of

this?" Ask instead "What part of me is

trying to speak?" Because behind every

craving is a conversation with yourself

you have not had the courage to have yet

and here's the most important thing you

need to know you're not wrong you're not

broken you're not perverted or weak or

addicted to pleasure you're disconnected

from your needs from your softness from

the forgotten voice inside you that says

"Please don't leave me again." And when

you finally listen you will see that

what you were calling lust was never

about the body it was the soul starving

for your return there was once a boy

quiet curious gentle in ways the world

didn't know how to hold he wanted simple

things to be heard to be held to be

loved without having to earn it but love

in his world came with conditions smile

more don't cry be strong be useful make

them proud and so he became what they

needed and forgot who he was not out of

rebellion out of survival because when

your softness is punished you learn to

harden when your emotions are dismissed

you learn to hide and when your worth

depends on performance you learn to

perform he grew into a man at least on

the outside confident sharp desired but

inside he was still that little boy

staring out the window wondering why

love always felt like a reward instead

of a right so he started chasing women

not to connect but to feel to feel

wanted to feel seen to feel even for a

moment like he mattered he believed it

was lust he told himself it was natural

masculine even but the truth he didn't

want sex he wanted safety he didn't want

her body he wanted her gaze the way it

made him forget that he never got to be

a child in peace you see when a boy

grows up unseen he becomes a man

addicted to being desired because desire

feels like visibility like proof that he

exists that someone finally notices but

it never lasts because desire without

intimacy is a flicker not a fire and so

the chase begins again and again and

again a loop of longing climax collapse

not because he's insatiable but because

he's still waiting for someone to look

past his body and say "I see you i see

the boy beneath the armor." But most

don't they fall in love with the mask

not the man and over time he forgets

there was ever anyone beneath it he

becomes the role the seducer the strong

one the emotionally unavailable one not

because he wants to be but because

vulnerability was never safe there's a

moment that happens to every man like

this he's lying next to someone she's

beautiful she's kind she's everything he

thought he wanted and yet he feels

nothing no depth no connection just the

echo of an old ache he still doesn't

have a name for because in that moment

he realizes something devastating he's

not with her he's with the fantasy he's

not present he's performing and

performance no matter how passionate can

never replace presence that's the wound

not that he craves too much but that he

was never taught how to sit with what he

craves how to feel without fleeing how

to ask without begging how to receive

without proving carl Jung would say that

every man carries this unhealed boy

within him and until you turn toward him

until you look him in the eyes and say

you don't have to perform anymore he'll

keep showing up in lust in loneliness in

moments that feel like love but vanish

the second they're touched so ask

yourself when was the first time you

felt invisible when did you start

chasing love instead of receiving it

when did your body become your armor and

your desire become your language because

the man who chases women endlessly is

often just a boy trying to rewrite a

story where love was withheld but no

woman no matter how beautiful can

rewrite that story for you only you can

not by chasing not by performing but by

coming home to the part of you that's

still waiting at the window waiting to

be seen to be loved to be enough without

doing anything at all you think it's her

her eyes her voice her softness you

think that's what you're drawn to that

it's her body that stirs something in

you something urgent primal irresistible

but the truth it's not her it never was

it's you the part of you she reminds you

of the part you forgot the part you

buried to survive carl Jung called it

thema the inner feminine that lives

within every man not feminine as in

gender but in essence tenderness emotion

intuition surrender the ability to feel

deeply without shame when a man

represses these traits when the world

teaches him to disconnect from his

emotional body to value strength over

softness stoicism over sensitivity he

loses contact with this inner feminine

but it does not disappear it goes

unconscious and from that shadowed place

it begins to project so when you meet

her the one who moves like music who

speaks with softness who radiates warmth

and feeling your soul wakes up not

because she is your other half but

because she mirrors a part of you you

forgot was even yours you don't crave

her you crave the reunion with yourself

this is the spiritual distortion most

men never see they think they are

falling in love with a woman but what

they are really doing is falling in love

with their lost soul through her that's

why the desire feels so overwhelming so

sacred so irrational because it's not

sexual it's symbolic your soul is trying

to come back to itself and it's using

her as the mirror but mirrors can't hold

you they can only show you what's

missing and when you don't understand

this you start chasing her possessing

her obsessing over her not because you

love her but because you think she has

something you have lost her softness her

warmth her glow but what you are really

chasing is the version of yourself that

knew how to feel and here's where it

gets dangerous because no woman no

matter how radiant can complete what's

missing in you she might awaken it she

might inspire it but if you have not met

your you will turn her into a fantasy

and fantasies always collapse because

the more disconnected you are from your

own soul the more pressure you put on

hers you want her to carry the weight of

your unmet needs your suppressed

emotions your forgotten beauty but she

was not designed for that no one is and

so the relationship begins to break not

because there's something wrong with her

but because you are not really with her

you are with your projection jung warned

of this he said that when the animma is

unconscious a man becomes enslaved by

what he calls erotic fantasy he does not

see the woman he sees the myth the dream

the symbol and the moment she reveals

herself as human with flaws boundaries

and limits he feels betrayed but the

betrayal is not hers it's his own soul

reminding him "This is not your path to

wholeness this is your invitation to

turn inward." Because the truth is the

more you chase her the more you abandon

yourself you're not pursuing love you're

avoiding reunion not with her but with

you so the next time you are captivated

by her presence ask yourself "What part

of me is she awakening is it your

softness your sensitivity your longing

to be touched emotionally not just

physically?" Because once you become

conscious of the everything changes you

stop chasing women to feel complete you

stop projecting your soul onto strangers

you begin reclaiming it integrating it

living it and suddenly you don't need to

consume beauty because you have

remembered your own she was never the

destination she was the signpost the

mirror the messenger pointing you back

to the place where your tenderness still

lives waiting to be felt again and when

you meet that part of you you will

realize you were not chasing sex you

were chasing your lost self through

someone else's body and you can finally

stop because what you were looking for

was never her it was you you have spent

years trying to outrun it the craving

the heat the urge that rises like a wave

and crashes with guilt you have tried

ignoring it fighting it numbing it

drowning it in silence then noise then

shame but lust was never the problem

repression does not heal it fragments it

deepens the split between who you are

and who you pretend to be carl Jung

never told us to destroy our desire he

told us to understand it because lust

when stripped of projection and

addiction is not sin it's signal it's

the soul's flare in the dark a cry from

the unconscious saying "There's

something here something you have not

faced yet." Healing does not come from

denying the craving it comes from

sitting with it breathing with it asking

it what it wants to show you not with

fear not with judgment but with presence

because presence changes everything when

you stop trying to escape the ache you

finally hear what it's trying to say i

miss you i need to be seen i'm not lust

i'm longing for you that's the shift

from addiction to awareness from

performance to presence from chasing

bodies to listening to your own this is

what Jung meant by integration not

killing off your shadow but folding it

back into the light you begin to see

that lust is not something to be ashamed

of it's something to learn from it shows

you where you are still disconnected

where you are still starving where you

still believe that love lives outside of

you but when you integrate you stop

searching for love in others because you

have remembered how to offer it to

yourself so next time the craving shows

up don't run don't scroll don't perform

stay stay with the ache stay with the

breath stay through the heat without

feeding it let the discomfort rise let

the fantasy fade let the silence speak

because within that silence is your

answer and when you finally feel it not

as an enemy but as a part of you

everything shifts you stop fearing your

desire and you start hearing it you stop

being consumed by it and you start

transforming with it lust becomes sacred

when you understand what it's pointing

to the part of you that's ready to

return home so ask yourself what are you

actually craving not the rush not the

body not the moment that makes you feel

wanted but beneath it all what is the

ache really asking for because the truth

is it was never about her not really she

was the mirror the projection the spark

that reminded you of something you lost

long ago yourself you did not crave her

touch you craved your own truth you were

not chasing love you were chasing your

own presence the part of you that got

buried beneath performance pressure and

pain carl Jung believed that desire when

misunderstood becomes addiction but when

seen clearly it becomes transformation

and now you have a choice you can keep

searching for her in images in fantasies

in fleeting arms hoping she will save

you from yourself or you can stop turn

inward and meet the one who's been

waiting all along because the wound that

was not your fault but the healing

that's your responsibility you don't

need more content more stimulation more

women more highs you need you your

breath your stillness your buried

softness your forgotten light you keep

reaching outward thinking salvation

lives in her gaze but it does not it

lives in your return so here's the

hardest truth you were never addicted to

her you were addicted to the feeling of

being whole now give that back to

yourself because when you stop

performing and start being when you stop

chasing and start listening lust becomes

a teacher stillness becomes a sanctuary

and presence becomes your power you

don't need her you need you all of you

and that's where everything begins if

this spoke to something inside you if it

helped you see your craving in a new

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