People will do anything... To avoid facing their own Soul...
- Marcus Nikos
- Jun 6
- 15 min read

hey don't talk about it but you feel it
late at night when no one's watching
when the world goes quiet and something
inside you does not your phone is in
your hand your mind is restless your
body's alive but your soul feels missing
so you chase something you scroll you
click you fantasize not because you are
bad not even because you are lustful but
because you are empty you tell yourself
it's normal
just biology just stress just a release
but deep down you know better because
even while you were chasing it you are
not really there your body moves but
your heart's somewhere else and when
it's over the silence comes back the
ache returns and the guilt it does not
come from morality it comes from
meaninglessness you have felt this
before not just after but during even
when it's intense wild thrilling you
feel distant from yourself you tell
yourself it's about pleasure but what if
it's not what if it's never been about
the body what if it's about the wound
the one you never got to speak the one
no one ever saw the one that did not
bleed but hollowed you out quietly carl
Jung once wrote "People will do anything
no matter how absurd to avoid facing
their own soul." What if lust is not
about desire but about escape escape
from boredom from loneliness from shame
from the unbearable silence of your
unmet self you don't just want her you
want to be held you want to be known you
want to be seen without having to
perform but instead you chase pixels
bodies moments a fleeting surge of
aliveness that dies as fast as it came
and what's left the same void the same
ache the same unanswered questions you
are not chasing her you are chasing the
part of you she reminds you of because
the real craving is not for touch it's
for truth it's not about lust it's about
loss the loss of connection to your body
to your purpose to your soul and here's
the most brutal truth of all lust is not
the enemy it's the symptom it's your
soul trying to get your attention in the
only language it knows how because
there's a wound inside you one you never
asked for one you never wanted but one
you have carried long enough and if
you're honest really honest you know
exactly what I'm talking about this
video is not about shaming you it's
about revealing what Carl Young believed
was the real meaning behind your desire
not sin not weakness but soul hunger and
in the next few minutes we'll explore
exactly what that hunger is trying to
show you why your cravings hurt and how
every act of lust is secretly a message
from the deepest part of you the part of
you that's not trying to feel pleasure
it's trying to feel whole again you have
been told it's natural that it's just
part of being human that lust is desire
and desire is life but what if that's
not true what if what you are feeling is
not lust at all what if it's hunger not
the kind that comes from the body but
the kind that comes from the soul the
kind that aches beneath your chest when
the world gets quiet the kind that no
screen no fantasy no climax can ever
satisfy because here's the truth no one
tells you lust is rarely about sex it's
about escape it's about the unbearable
emptiness that creeps in when you are no
longer distracted it's about numbing the
ache of disconnection not just from
others but from yourself every time you
reach for another hit another body
another high you are not reaching for
pleasure you are reaching for proof
proof that you're still wanted still
alive still capable of feeling something
but what if the reason you crave that
rush is because you have been running on
empty for years there's a wound inside
you maybe you can't name it maybe you
pretend it's not there but it shows up
anyway in your restlessness in your
endless scrolling in the fantasies that
never satisfy in the quiet moments that
feel like suffocation because what you
call lust might just be your soul's way
of screaming "I'm starving feed me
something real." Let me tell you a story
there was a man by all appearances he
had it together charismatic ambitious
always chasing women he believed what he
felt was desire he told himself he was
in control that every conquest was a win
but late at night when no one was
watching he would feel it that void he
would lie there next to someone who once
thrilled him and feel nothing no
connection no warmth just a dull ache he
could not explain he kept going kept
chasing kept performing until one day he
asked himself a terrifying question what
if I don't actually want her what if I
just don't want to feel alone and that
changed everything because he realized
he was using her body as a distraction
from his own emptiness he did not want
love he wanted escape he wanted
something to cover the silence inside
him he was not chasing her he was
fleeing himself that's what most people
don't understand lust in our world has
become a drug it offers the illusion of
power of freedom of being wanted but
underneath it's a dopamine loop trigger
fantasy release numbness repeat and the
more you feed it the less alive you feel
because the pleasure is not real it's
not rooted in connection in intimacy in
meaning it's rooted in performance you
play a role you follow a script you
climax and collapse and then you're back
where you started alone with yourself
still hungry still empty carl Young did
not see lust as a moral failure he saw
it as a spiritual signal a flare from
the unconscious a warning from the soul
because when you're truly whole you
don't chase you don't cling you don't
search for proof in someone else's body
you become desire itself you radiate
from within you no longer need to
consume to feel alive because you are
already connected to something deeper
but to get there you have to stop lying
to yourself you have to admit that the
craving is not random that the endless
lust is not a need it's a mask a mask
hiding the fact that you have been
disconnected for far too long so the
next time you feel the pull stop don't
repress it don't act on it blindly just
ask "What am I really craving right now
not the image not the surge not the
escape but the real thing the real
need." And you might hear an answer that
surprises you not sex not release but
something softer deeper older something
that sounds like I want to be held i
want to be known i want to come back to
myself because maybe just maybe you have
never been lustful you have just been
hungry for something real there's a part
of you you have never met not directly
not face to face but it shows up every
night you scroll every time you crave
every time you break a promise you swore
you would keep carl Jung called it the
shadow not evil not monstrous just
exiled it's the part of you you have
tried to forget because it made others
uncomfortable the part that wanted too
much felt too deeply needed to be loved
without earning it so you buried it
pushed it down dressed it in silence and
called it control but the shadow never
disappears it waits and when you are
tired or alone or numb it speaks and the
voice it uses sounds a lot like lust you
think it's desire but it's not it's your
shadow whispering through your cravings
notice me feel me let me exist but
because you have forgotten how to speak
that language you misinterpret it you
think you want her you think you need
release you think your body is the
problem but the ache it's not in your
body it's in your soul you have mistaken
longing for integration as lust for
stimulation and the more you run from it
the more power it gains because that's
what repressed energy does it doesn't
vanish it mutates it becomes addictive
compulsive uncontrollable young said
"People will do anything no matter how
absurd to avoid facing their own soul
and what could be more absurd than
thinking another body will heal a wound
that lives in your psyche here's how the
cycle works you feel lonely not a
loneliness of company but of identity a
disconnection from your essence so you
crave you chase you surrender to the
pattern the hit comes the moment of
intensity a second of false
transcendence then it dies and you feel
it the guilt the disappointment the
quiet shame and to escape that feeling
you scroll again lust guilt numbness
repeat this is the shadow seduced loop
it does not just feed on lust it feeds
on your forgetfulness forgetfulness of
who you are of what you need of the
voice inside you that is not craving
dopamine it's craving wholeness here's
the truth you're not addicted to sex
you're addicted to escape and every time
you run from the ache you teach your
nervous system that you can't handle
stillness but the shadow does not want
to destroy you it wants to reunite with
you the part of you that still weeps in
silence wants to be seen not fixed not
shamed seen because what you call lust
is often the repressed cry of a child
who was not met with love when he needed
it most so now you search for warmth not
because you're a sinner but because you
were never taught how to hold your own
pain this is what Jung meant by
integration not becoming perfect not
deleting desire but turning toward the
parts of yourself you have disowned and
saying "I'm listening now." Because when
you silence the shadow you don't become
free you become fractured you move
through life pretending performing
pleasing while your real self sits in
the dark waiting to be remembered lust
is not your flaw it's your flashlight
it's the soul's way of pointing to the
place inside you that was left behind so
the next time it rises don't shame it
don't numb it don't run from it pause
feel the pull the ache the heat and
instead of asking "How do I get rid of
this?" Ask instead "What part of me is
trying to speak?" Because behind every
craving is a conversation with yourself
you have not had the courage to have yet
and here's the most important thing you
need to know you're not wrong you're not
broken you're not perverted or weak or
addicted to pleasure you're disconnected
from your needs from your softness from
the forgotten voice inside you that says
"Please don't leave me again." And when
you finally listen you will see that
what you were calling lust was never
about the body it was the soul starving
for your return there was once a boy
quiet curious gentle in ways the world
didn't know how to hold he wanted simple
things to be heard to be held to be
loved without having to earn it but love
in his world came with conditions smile
more don't cry be strong be useful make
them proud and so he became what they
needed and forgot who he was not out of
rebellion out of survival because when
your softness is punished you learn to
harden when your emotions are dismissed
you learn to hide and when your worth
depends on performance you learn to
perform he grew into a man at least on
the outside confident sharp desired but
inside he was still that little boy
staring out the window wondering why
love always felt like a reward instead
of a right so he started chasing women
not to connect but to feel to feel
wanted to feel seen to feel even for a
moment like he mattered he believed it
was lust he told himself it was natural
masculine even but the truth he didn't
want sex he wanted safety he didn't want
her body he wanted her gaze the way it
made him forget that he never got to be
a child in peace you see when a boy
grows up unseen he becomes a man
addicted to being desired because desire
feels like visibility like proof that he
exists that someone finally notices but
it never lasts because desire without
intimacy is a flicker not a fire and so
the chase begins again and again and
again a loop of longing climax collapse
not because he's insatiable but because
he's still waiting for someone to look
past his body and say "I see you i see
the boy beneath the armor." But most
don't they fall in love with the mask
not the man and over time he forgets
there was ever anyone beneath it he
becomes the role the seducer the strong
one the emotionally unavailable one not
because he wants to be but because
vulnerability was never safe there's a
moment that happens to every man like
this he's lying next to someone she's
beautiful she's kind she's everything he
thought he wanted and yet he feels
nothing no depth no connection just the
echo of an old ache he still doesn't
have a name for because in that moment
he realizes something devastating he's
not with her he's with the fantasy he's
not present he's performing and
performance no matter how passionate can
never replace presence that's the wound
not that he craves too much but that he
was never taught how to sit with what he
craves how to feel without fleeing how
to ask without begging how to receive
without proving carl Jung would say that
every man carries this unhealed boy
within him and until you turn toward him
until you look him in the eyes and say
you don't have to perform anymore he'll
keep showing up in lust in loneliness in
moments that feel like love but vanish
the second they're touched so ask
yourself when was the first time you
felt invisible when did you start
chasing love instead of receiving it
when did your body become your armor and
your desire become your language because
the man who chases women endlessly is
often just a boy trying to rewrite a
story where love was withheld but no
woman no matter how beautiful can
rewrite that story for you only you can
not by chasing not by performing but by
coming home to the part of you that's
still waiting at the window waiting to
be seen to be loved to be enough without
doing anything at all you think it's her
her eyes her voice her softness you
think that's what you're drawn to that
it's her body that stirs something in
you something urgent primal irresistible
but the truth it's not her it never was
it's you the part of you she reminds you
of the part you forgot the part you
buried to survive carl Jung called it
thema the inner feminine that lives
within every man not feminine as in
gender but in essence tenderness emotion
intuition surrender the ability to feel
deeply without shame when a man
represses these traits when the world
teaches him to disconnect from his
emotional body to value strength over
softness stoicism over sensitivity he
loses contact with this inner feminine
but it does not disappear it goes
unconscious and from that shadowed place
it begins to project so when you meet
her the one who moves like music who
speaks with softness who radiates warmth
and feeling your soul wakes up not
because she is your other half but
because she mirrors a part of you you
forgot was even yours you don't crave
her you crave the reunion with yourself
this is the spiritual distortion most
men never see they think they are
falling in love with a woman but what
they are really doing is falling in love
with their lost soul through her that's
why the desire feels so overwhelming so
sacred so irrational because it's not
sexual it's symbolic your soul is trying
to come back to itself and it's using
her as the mirror but mirrors can't hold
you they can only show you what's
missing and when you don't understand
this you start chasing her possessing
her obsessing over her not because you
love her but because you think she has
something you have lost her softness her
warmth her glow but what you are really
chasing is the version of yourself that
knew how to feel and here's where it
gets dangerous because no woman no
matter how radiant can complete what's
missing in you she might awaken it she
might inspire it but if you have not met
your you will turn her into a fantasy
and fantasies always collapse because
the more disconnected you are from your
own soul the more pressure you put on
hers you want her to carry the weight of
your unmet needs your suppressed
emotions your forgotten beauty but she
was not designed for that no one is and
so the relationship begins to break not
because there's something wrong with her
but because you are not really with her
you are with your projection jung warned
of this he said that when the animma is
unconscious a man becomes enslaved by
what he calls erotic fantasy he does not
see the woman he sees the myth the dream
the symbol and the moment she reveals
herself as human with flaws boundaries
and limits he feels betrayed but the
betrayal is not hers it's his own soul
reminding him "This is not your path to
wholeness this is your invitation to
turn inward." Because the truth is the
more you chase her the more you abandon
yourself you're not pursuing love you're
avoiding reunion not with her but with
you so the next time you are captivated
by her presence ask yourself "What part
of me is she awakening is it your
softness your sensitivity your longing
to be touched emotionally not just
physically?" Because once you become
conscious of the everything changes you
stop chasing women to feel complete you
stop projecting your soul onto strangers
you begin reclaiming it integrating it
living it and suddenly you don't need to
consume beauty because you have
remembered your own she was never the
destination she was the signpost the
mirror the messenger pointing you back
to the place where your tenderness still
lives waiting to be felt again and when
you meet that part of you you will
realize you were not chasing sex you
were chasing your lost self through
someone else's body and you can finally
stop because what you were looking for
was never her it was you you have spent
years trying to outrun it the craving
the heat the urge that rises like a wave
and crashes with guilt you have tried
ignoring it fighting it numbing it
drowning it in silence then noise then
shame but lust was never the problem
repression does not heal it fragments it
deepens the split between who you are
and who you pretend to be carl Jung
never told us to destroy our desire he
told us to understand it because lust
when stripped of projection and
addiction is not sin it's signal it's
the soul's flare in the dark a cry from
the unconscious saying "There's
something here something you have not
faced yet." Healing does not come from
denying the craving it comes from
sitting with it breathing with it asking
it what it wants to show you not with
fear not with judgment but with presence
because presence changes everything when
you stop trying to escape the ache you
finally hear what it's trying to say i
miss you i need to be seen i'm not lust
i'm longing for you that's the shift
from addiction to awareness from
performance to presence from chasing
bodies to listening to your own this is
what Jung meant by integration not
killing off your shadow but folding it
back into the light you begin to see
that lust is not something to be ashamed
of it's something to learn from it shows
you where you are still disconnected
where you are still starving where you
still believe that love lives outside of
you but when you integrate you stop
searching for love in others because you
have remembered how to offer it to
yourself so next time the craving shows
up don't run don't scroll don't perform
stay stay with the ache stay with the
breath stay through the heat without
feeding it let the discomfort rise let
the fantasy fade let the silence speak
because within that silence is your
answer and when you finally feel it not
as an enemy but as a part of you
everything shifts you stop fearing your
desire and you start hearing it you stop
being consumed by it and you start
transforming with it lust becomes sacred
when you understand what it's pointing
to the part of you that's ready to
return home so ask yourself what are you
actually craving not the rush not the
body not the moment that makes you feel
wanted but beneath it all what is the
ache really asking for because the truth
is it was never about her not really she
was the mirror the projection the spark
that reminded you of something you lost
long ago yourself you did not crave her
touch you craved your own truth you were
not chasing love you were chasing your
own presence the part of you that got
buried beneath performance pressure and
pain carl Jung believed that desire when
misunderstood becomes addiction but when
seen clearly it becomes transformation
and now you have a choice you can keep
searching for her in images in fantasies
in fleeting arms hoping she will save
you from yourself or you can stop turn
inward and meet the one who's been
waiting all along because the wound that
was not your fault but the healing
that's your responsibility you don't
need more content more stimulation more
women more highs you need you your
breath your stillness your buried
softness your forgotten light you keep
reaching outward thinking salvation
lives in her gaze but it does not it
lives in your return so here's the
hardest truth you were never addicted to
her you were addicted to the feeling of
being whole now give that back to
yourself because when you stop
performing and start being when you stop
chasing and start listening lust becomes
a teacher stillness becomes a sanctuary
and presence becomes your power you
don't need her you need you all of you
and that's where everything begins if
this spoke to something inside you if it
helped you see your craving in a new
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