This Will Change How You See Pain Forever
- Marcus Nikos
- Apr 17
- 10 min read

Have you ever longed to be someone
unmovable someone who remains calm
amidst criticism untouched by rejection
steady through betrayal and loss
have you ever imagined a day when the
quiet ache inside you the one hidden
behind smiles and small talk finally
goes silent maybe you're exhausted Not
from life itself but from the endless
performance it demands From the mask of
strength you've worn so long it's begun
to feel like your skin What if all
you've ever wanted was permission to
exhale even just once here's a truth you
rarely hear As long as you keep running
from pain it will keep chasing you As
long as you numb suppress distract your
suffering becomes your compass
Everything that wounds you from the
outside only holds power because
something within you is still open still
raw You are not fragile for feeling this
way You are simply human The difference
is some people just got better at
pretending than
others Carl Young one of the deepest
thinkers of the psyche once said "We are
not what happened to us We are what we
choose to
become This is the doorway The escape is
not through indifference not through
building
walls It is through
integration The courage to walk toward
your shadows instead of away Because
real strength is not found in your
ability to avoid pain but in your
willingness to face it Bleeding shaking
but
aware And if you're still here still
listening this message found you for a
reason This isn't just for anyone It's
for you The one who's tired of being at
the mercy of your emotions Tired of
bending and breaking under every harsh
word Every unexpected silence Every time
someone pulled away without
explanation you feel powerless like
others hold the strings to your
peace But what if it didn't have to be
that
way what if the reason you're hurting
isn't because of what others did but
because of what it touched inside of you
maybe it's not the betrayal itself but
what it confirms in you that you're not
enough
Maybe it's not the silence but the echo
of abandonment you felt long before The
real damage doesn't come from the
outside It comes from how deeply those
moments dig into wounds You never knew
we're still
bleeding Jung taught that the pain we
feel in the external world mirrors the
parts of our inner world we've yet to
face
This is why two people can experience
the same moment One walks away unchanged
and the other is
shattered It's not the moment
itself It's where it
lands And if it lands in an open wound
it will hurt Now comes the part you
might not want to hear You still suffer
because somewhere deep down you believe
you can control how others treat you You
believe if you're just good enough kind
enough strong enough you'll be
safe But control is a
mirage And as long as you keep reaching
for it you'll keep
breaking If you want to stop suffering
stop trying to protect yourself from
pain You don't need more control You
need more
awareness The moment you understand that
outside forces only hold power when they
stir something unresolved inside of you
that's the moment you begin to reclaim
your
life This is the real battlefield your
unconscious mind The part of you that
you don't see don't understand and don't
control That part controls you And
that's where we're going next Wake up
You've been lied to You're not in
control Not as long as you live on
autopilot Reacting to life instead of
responding Feeling waves of sadness
anger fear without knowing where they
begin Making choices you later regret
sabotaging your own progress
Young said "Until you make the
unconscious conscious it will direct
your life and you will call it
fate." That is exactly what's happening
The anger that erupts the despair that
floods in for no clear reason the
anxiety that wraps itself around you
when everything seems fine These aren't
random They are messages whispers from
the parts of you that you've buried but
never
healed Jung called this dark terrain the
unconscious Not a fog of forgotten
thoughts but a living breathing force
filled with memories traumas fears and
desires you refuse to
face But just because you don't see them
doesn't mean they've disappeared
They've just found new ways to surface
through relationships that drain you
Through cycles you can't seem to break
Through that voice inside that keeps
telling you "Something's wrong but I
can't name it." You wonder why some
comments destroy you while others brush
them off It's not about the comment It's
about the wound it touches And if it
still hurts it's because it still lives
in you You never healed
it You just swept it under your
emotional carpet and now you trip over
it again and
again Jung said "We can't change what we
don't accept." And yet you keep
resisting yourself judging your emotions
suppressing your needs hiding your fears
But repression doesn't liberate you It
cages
you Your unconscious doesn't disappear
because you ignore it It grows louder It
becomes the toxic partner you return to
The job you hate but can't
leave The storm of anxiety that arrives
when you finally feel
peace This is not bad luck This is your
soul demanding to be seen So what's the
answer it's not more avoidance It's
integration Because becoming untouchable
doesn't mean becoming invincible It
means becoming
whole What does it really mean to be
someone
unshaken to be
untouchable not in arrogance but in
truth
Most people think it means shutting down
putting up walls building armor thick
enough to block the world They say "I'm
fine." When they're falling apart they
convince themselves that caring is
weakness But the bleeding
continues just beneath the
surface And over time it turns into
corrosion Because the problem is never
in feeling The problem is in not knowing
why you feel in not understanding where
the pain comes from Jung said "Know all
the theories master all the techniques
but when you touch a human soul be just
another human soul."
And you buried behind your performance
your resilience your carefully curated
identity are aching to be
seen Not for your strength but for your
truth Emotional strength is not found in
denial It's found in integration in the
bravery to bring your shame your doubt
your fear into the light You don't
become untouchable by walling off your
heart You become untouchable when
nothing within you is
disowned When you've sat with every part
of yourself light and shadow and made
peace with it That is freedom The
freedom to respond instead of react The
power to choose instead of collapse
Young called this the process of
individuation The becoming of who you
truly are Not the image you
project not the role you
perform but the union of your entire
being And here's the twist no one tells
you The more you run from pain the more
it finds you The more you try to stay
unaffected the more fragile you become
But when you embrace your wounds when
you stop pretending and start listening
nothing outside you can undo you This
takes
courage The kind of courage that cracks
you open that strips away the ego that
demands you
feel Because within your pain a door
waits to be
opened Let's walk through it From a
young age you were taught that pain
meant weakness that crying was failure
that emotions were something to fix or
hide So you began to escape to build
distractions to harden But pain doesn't
vanish when ignored It transforms into
anxiety into rage into apathy into that
creeping sense of dread that wakes you
in the night with no name
Unfelt pain digs tunnels inside of you
slowly collapsing your inner
world Jung saw this differently He
believed suffering was sacred a message
from the soul a signal that something
within you is desperate for
change He once said "Depression is like
a woman in black If she turns up don't
shoe her away Invite her in Offer her a
seat and listen to what she has to say
But you don't listen You
distract You scroll You
silence You
numb What if instead you listened what
if pain isn't the enemy but the
invitation suffering cuts so deeply only
because you are still resisting yourself
One part of you wants
transformation The other is terrified of
what must be left
behind This is where pain is born in the
tension between who you are and who you
are
becoming Transformation is not clean It
is not comfortable It is a dying a
burning down of beliefs identities
relationships that no longer serve you
And in that fire something truer
emerges It is only when your defenses
collapse when the performance ends that
you begin to see yourself clearly And in
that seeing there is
liberation Because beneath the ruin lies
the raw material of your rebirth
Jung knew this Suffering is not the
breakdown It is the
beginning But most people turn back They
leave the path It gets dark It gets
lonely So they return to what's
familiar Not you You are still here
Which means you're ready Ready to cross
through And in the next part we'll walk
together through that final valley
Because on the other side of this pain
isn't more suffering It's you whole
awake free Let's keep going Part two the
descent and the rising You're still here
That means you didn't run You didn't
numb it away You didn't lie to yourself
and call it healing You stayed You felt
And that alone makes you one of the few
Most people never make it past the
surface They build prettier masks They
collect self-help quotes like armor But
you you looked inward You sat with the
storm You chose to descend Because
healing isn't a light
switch It's not a moment of clarity or a
sudden release It's a long aching
unraveling and you're in it
now But let me warn you this part might
hurt more than anything
before
Why because now you're seeing it The
patterns the reasons the ways you were
taught to betray yourself for love The
way you stayed small to feel safe The
way you apologized for taking up space
Maybe you're realizing the love you
thought you had was never love Just
control just
conditions just
performance Maybe you're remembering how
often you silenced your truth just to be
accepted How often you stayed where you
weren't wanted how often you became
someone else just to feel worthy This
grief you
feel it's not just about the past It's
about the version of you that lived
there and now that version is
dying Let
it because you can't become who you were
meant to be if you're still protecting
who you had to be
This is what Jung called the death of
the false self The breakdown of the ego
identity you built just to survive And
when it crumbles it feels like you're
crumbling too But you're not You're
shedding And what
remains
stillness And in that
stillness something new begins to
breathe
It's soft at first like a whisper
beneath the rubble A voice you almost
forgot Your voice not the one shaped by
fear or shame or
guilt The one that was buried beneath
them This voice doesn't beg to be loved
It knows it is love It doesn't prove
itself
It simply
is This is your
essence The core of
you Not your trauma not your
achievements not your
pain just you And you're beginning to
feel
it You're not just reacting
anymore You're
observing You're pausing You're
choosing Where once there was
chaos now there is
space And in that space
power The kind of power that comes from
knowing I am
whole even when I am
healing This is the moment your life
begins to shift
Not because the world changed but
because you
did You stopped looking for someone else
to save you You realized no one is
coming And strangely that didn't break
you It freed you Now you stand in your
pain in your
fear in your longing not as a victim but
as a witness
You see your story You own your
story And then you rise But rising isn't
what you thought it' be It's not
loud It's not dramatic It's not posted
for likes It's
quiet It's the way you say no without
guilt It's the way you choose peace over
chaos
Even when chaos feels
familiar it's the way you stop chasing
people who only loved the broken version
of
you It's the way you come home to
yourself again and again without needing
to be fixed You're not trying to be
untouchable anymore because you already
are Not because you're
numb but because there's nothing left in
you to
prove You've touched the depth of your
soul You've made peace with your
darkness And
now nothing outside of you holds power
over
you They can reject
you You'll still love
yourself They can misunderstand you
You'll still speak your
truth They can leave and you'll still
remain because you
remain And that is the real freedom Yung
spoke of The freedom not from pain but
through it The kind that can't be taken
The kind that lives at the core of who
you are
And now you're finally meeting that
person Not the one you tried to be Not
the one you were told to
be but the one you've always
been The work isn't done It never
is But you're no longer afraid of it
because you're no longer afraid of
yourself Welcome
home I am not broken I was never meant
to be whole in the way the world wanted
me to
be But I am complete because I carry
both light and shadow within me I have
met the beast within Not to cage it but
to understand it to listen and to
forgive There is no enemy now only
echoes of fear of shame of
pain And I no longer run from them I sit
beside
them I offer them
warmth And in return they whisper
truth I do not seek control anymore I
seek presence
A life who lived with open hands not
clenched
fists I am not the mask I
wore not the silence I
kept not the wounds I tried to hide I am
the
witness the one who stayed even when it
hurt
I have died a thousand tiny deaths and
with each one something false fell
away
Now what
remains is
real This is not
transcendence This is
grounding This is
integration the sacred union of what was
denied with what was always
true I walk now not as a
fragment but as a rhythm a
harmony a soul remembering its own
name I have
become what I was always meant to be I
am home
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