I wrote this from my time in the Pit... Hope it can help

You ever feel like the world's playing some Grand joke on you like every step you take every choice you make just

leads you back to the same old mess you tell yourself this time is different but deep down you know the truth the truth

is you've been spinning in circles trapped in a routine that feels

more like a slow motion collapse than a life you know what the funniest thing about life is people walk around

pretending they've got it all together like they've got the world on a leash but inside inside they're a mess cracks

running through every part of them just barely holding on and the real kicker

they know it they feel it every morning when they wake up every night when they lie in bed staring at the ceiling they

feel those cracks spreading breaking them apart bit by bit but instead of

facing it instead of stopping and saying yeah something's wrong here they slap on

another coat of pain another fake smile and tell the world I'm fine they lie to

themselves they lie to everyone around them thinking if they just keep pretending maybe it'll somehow fix

itself but does it no it never does see acknowledging the cracks is the hardest

part people hate it because it makes them feel weak vulnerable like they're admitting defeat

but here's the thing it's not defeat it's not weakness it's

reality and ignoring reality doesn't make it go away it just makes the fall that much harder when it finally comes

crashing down people cling to this idea that if they admit something's wrong if

they admit their life isn't working then they failed but that's not failure

failure is knowing something's broken and doing nothing about it failure is watching the cracks grow wider and

deeper and pretending they don't exist you ever see someone try to patch up a damn with duct tape

that's what it looks like they're holding on for dear life hoping the cracks won't give way but you can see it

in their eyes they know it's only a matter of time but why why do people do this to

themselves why do they choose the pain of pretending over the freedom of admitting the truth

simple fear. fear of what happens when they stop pretending fear of what they'll see when

they take a long hard look at their life fear of what it means to

say this isn't working this isn't who I want to

be because once you admit it once you say it out loud there's no going back

you can't unsee the cracks you can't unfe the weight of knowing your life isn't what it should be and that scares

people more than anything else they'd rather live in a lie than face the UN certainty of change but the

cracks don't care about your fear they don't care about your excuses they keep

growing keep spreading until one day everything falls apart and when that day comes when the

damn finally breaks people act surprised they say I never saw it coming how did

this happen but they saw it they

knew they just didn't want to deal with it they didn't want to face the truth that was staring them in the face the

whole time and that's the tragedy isn't it not that the cracks were there but that they ignored them until it was too

late acknowledging the cracks doesn't mean you've failed it means you've woken up it means

you finally decided to stop living in denial and start facing the reality of

your life it's not weakness it's strength it's the first step toward

taking control toward doing something about the mess and instead of letting it control you but people don't see it that

way they think admitting there's a problem makes them less less strong less

capable less worthy but what's the alternative pretend everything's fine

until it all comes crashing down that's not strength that's cowardice the thing is

you can't fix what you don't acknowledge you can't move forward until you face the truth of where you are and yeah it's

scary it's uncomfortable it makes you feel like you're standing naked in the middle of a

storm but that's storm that's where the real change

happens that's where you find out what you're made of you can't hide from it can't run from it no matter how hard you

try sooner or later the cracks will catch up with you sooner or later you'll

have to face them the question is will you do it on your own terms or will you

wait until the choice is ripped out of your hands most people wait they let the cracks grow until

their whole world collapses around them and then they're left standing in the rubble wondering how it all went so

wrong but not you you're here you're listening you've already started to see the cracks haven't you you've already

felt them growing spreading threatening to tear everything apart and that's good

that's the first step the hardest step because once you see the cracks you can't unsee them

once you acknowledge them you can't pretend they don't exist and that's

where the power lies not in ignoring them not in pretending they're not there

but in facing them headon because the cracks aren't the

end they're the beginning fear it's the leash that keeps everyone in line isn't

it tightens around their necks every time they think about letting go of something even when that something is

tearing them apart it's funny really how people cling to the very things that make them Miserable as if losing them

would somehow be worse than the agony of holding on they'll tell themselves a million little lies to justify it it's

not so bad I can make it work what if I can't do better but deep down they know the truth

they're just too scared to face it the fear of letting go is a powerful thing

it Whispers In Your Ear painting pictures of disaster making you believe that what you have no

matter how broken no matter how painful is better than the unknown because the

unknown oh that's the monster under the bed isn't it the thing you can't see

can't predict can't control and people they hate not being in control they

rather chain themselves to their misery than risk stepping into the dark even if

that Darkness might just lead to Freedom you see it all the time people staying

in jobs that drain the life out of them relationships that chip away at their souls situations that suffocate them and

when you ask them why they'll give you all sorts of excuses it's not the right time I have

responsibilities I can't afford to take the risk but those are just masks aren't they masks to cover the fear the truth

is they're terrified terrified of what happens when they let go terrified of

who they'll be without the things they've been holding on to for so long because when you let go you're left with

nothing but yourself no crutches no distractions just you and that for most

people is the scariest thing of all but here's the punchline the fear of letting go is a lie it's a trick your

mind plays on you to keep you safe to keep you comfortable to keep you stuck it Whispers all the things that could go

wrong but it never shows you what could go right it magnet ifies the risks and

blinds you to the rewards it convinces you that the pain

you know is better than the possibility of something better something

real something that doesn't make you feel like you're suffocating every second of the day the fear isn't real oh

it feels real sure it wraps around you tightens its grip makes your heart race your palm sweat but it's all smoke and

mirrors a projection of your own doubts and insecurities designed to keep you in the

cage you've built for yourself and the cage it's not even locked the door is

wide open always has been but stepping through it means confronting the fear

and that's where most people falter they stand at the edge looking out into the unknown and they freeze they let the

fear win but what they don't realize is that Letting Go isn't the end it's not a

loss it's not a defeat it's Freedom it's the act of taking back

control of choosing yourself over the things that weigh you down it's saying I deserve more than this I deserve to

breathe and yeah it's scary of course it is change is always scary but so is

staying the same so is waking up every day feeling like you're

drowning knowing that nothing's going to get better until you make the choice to let go the fear will tell you that

Letting Go means losing something but what it doesn't tell you is what you'll gain Clarity

peace a chance to rebuild to create a life that actually feels like living instead of

surviving and isn't that worth the risk isn't that worth stepping into the

unknown even if it means stumbling a bit along the way people don't like to admit

it but deep down they know the answer they know they can't keep holding on forever they know the fear is a lie they

just need someone to remind them of it the funny thing is once you let go once you take that step you realize the fear

was never as big as it seemed it shrinks in the face of action crumbles under the weight of

Courage because courage isn't the absence of fear it's the decision to act

in spite of it it's standing at the edge of the unknown and heart pounding knees shaking and taking that step anyway not

because you're not scared but because you know staying where you are is no longer an option people will tell you

it's Brave that it takes strength to let go but it's not about bravery or strength it's about

Choice it's about deciding that the life you've been living isn't enough that you deserve more that you're willing to face

the fear because you know the alternative is worse it's about recognizing that the things you've been

holding on are holding you up they're holding you back and the moment you see

that the moment you truly understand understand it the fear loses its power it becomes just another voice in the

background easy to ignore easy to silence because you finally chosen to stop listening starting from zero the

very idea makes people shiver doesn't it it's like standing at the edge of a cliff staring into the abyss knowing

you've got to jump but having no clue what's at the bottom most people would rather cling to the crumbling ledge

Nails digging in then risk that leap the thought of having nothing no plan no

safety net no certainty it's too much for them they see Zero as a void a vacuum the death of everything they've

built but that's the joke isn't it zero isn't the end it's the beginning it's

not a grave it's a blank canvas and the funny thing is until you hit zero you'll

never understand the freedom it brings people spend their lives hoarding things possessions relationships achievements

ideas of who they think they are they build this Fortress around themselves stacking bricks of identity and security

telling themselves they're safe but safe from what from life from change from

reality the truth is those fortresses are prisons they lock you in trap you in a version of yourself that stopped

growing a long time ago and the more you add to it the heavier it

gets until one day you wake up and realize you're buried alive under the weight of your own

creation starting from zero is the hammer that smashes it all to

pieces it's terrifying because it strips away all the things you thought to find

you all the things you used to prop yourself up it leaves you naked exposed

vulnerable but here's the twist that's where the magic happens when you've got nothing you've got nothing to

lose and when you've got nothing to lose your free free to rebuild free to create

free to become something new cuz zero doesn't come with rules or expectations

it doesn't care about your past your mistakes your failures it's just pure unfiltered potential but people don't

see it that way they see Zero as failure as proof that they've wasted their time

their effort their lives they look at the ruins and think this is all I have to show for

it but that's the wrong question the real question is what can I build

now because zero isn't about what's gone it's about what's possible it's a reset

button a second chance a clean slate and yeah it's messy it's uncomfortable it's

chaos but chaos is where creation begins it's the raw material of

transformation the fire that burns away the old and makes way for the new people

are so scared of losing what they have even if what they have is broken toxic or meaningless they cling to it because

it's familiar because it's all they know but starting from zero isn't about loss

it's about Liberation it's about cutting away the dead weight the anchors the chains that

keep you tied to a life that doesn't feel like your own it's about stepping into the

unknown not because you know what's waiting for you but because you know what you're leaving behind isn't worth

holding on to the funny thing is once once you Embrace zero once you stop seeing it as an enemy and start seeing

it as an ally Everything Changes the fear melts away the doubts quiet down

and you realize that the only thing holding you back was you your fear of failing your fear of starting over your

fear of not being enough but zero doesn't care about any of that it doesn't judge doesn't criticize doesn't

hold you to some impossible standard it just gives you space space to breathe

space to grow space to be whoever the hell you want to be and that's the secret most people don't understand zero

isn't a punishment it's a gift it's the moment when everything falls away and you're left with nothing but

yourself and sure that's scary it's raw it's uncomfortable it's

real but it's also the moment when you realize you don't need all the things you thought you needed you don't need

the approval the possessions the status the stories you've been telling yourself for years all you need is the courage to

take that first step to start building again to create something new out of the ashes the world will tell you that

starting from zero is a failure it's something to be ashamed of

but the world is wrong the world is terrified of zero because it doesn't understand it it doesn't see the beauty

the potential the freedom that comes with letting go of everything and starting fresh but you're different

aren't you you see it you feel it that tiny spark of hope buried under all

the fear and doubt telling you that maybe just maybe zero is exactly where

you're meant to be because zero isn't the end of the story it's where the real story begins you ever notice how people

love to wear masks not the kind you find at a party or the ones they hide behind when they're up to something Shady but

the masks they put on every single day the ones they used to tell the world they're okay that they've got it all

figured out that they're happy it's a game really a game of pretend

where everyone's a player and the Only Rule is to never let anyone see what's

underneath but here's the twist The Mask don't fool anyone not really everyone knows deep

down that they're all just playing along hiding their cracks their fears their truths and the funniest

part they think they're protecting themselves by doing it people think V

ability is a weakness they think showing who they really are warts and all is a sign of failure a in their armor

that'll leave them exposed open to attack so they pile on the mass layer

after layer until they can't even recognize themselves anymore they build these elaborate facades full of smiles

and small talk and carefully curated lives all to keep the world from seeing

what's behind the curtain but what they don't realize is that the masks aren't protecting them they're suffocating them

the more you hide the heavier it gets until one day you look in the mirror and wonder where you went the irony is that

the very thing people are so afraid of being seen being known being vulnerable is the one thing that could set them

free because vulnerability isn't a weakness it's not a crack in the armor

it's the key to taking it off all together it's the act of standing there raw un exposed and saying this is me

take it or leave it it it's terrifying sure but it's also liberating because when you stop hiding

when you stop pretending you give yourself permission to be real and real real is where the magic happens but

no one wants to go first to they everyone's too busy waiting for someone else to drop their mask to show their

hand to make the first move it's like a standoff where everyone's holding their

breath afraid that if they blink they'll lose and so they wait and wait and wait

meanwhile their real selves are screaming to be let out banging on the walls of the carefully constructed

prisons they built around themselves it's a tragic kind of Comedy really a

room full of people all desperate to connect but too scared to take the first

step and when someone finally does when someone has the guts to take off their mask and say here I am you know you know

what happens people don't laugh they don't judge they don't tear them apart no they lean in they listen

they see themselves in that person see their own fears their own struggles their own Humanity because that's the

thing about vulnerability it's contagious when one person has the courage to be real it gives everyone

else permission to do the same it's like a spark that ignites a fire burning through the facades and the walls and

the lies until all that's left is the truth and the truth the truth is messy it's

uncomfortable it's raw and imperfect and beautiful in a way that no mask could ever be the truth is what connects us

what makes us human but people spend so much time running from it afraid that if

they let it out they'll be judged rejected cast aside what they don't see

is that the very things they're hiding their scars their fears their struggles are the things that make them who they

are the things that make them worth knowing were worth loving worth fighting for but admitting that that's the hard

part letting go of the Mask stepping into the light and saying this is me it takes

guts it takes strength it takes a willingness to be seen even if it means

risking rejection but the alternative the alternative is living a

life that isn't yours a life dictated by fear and shame and the desperate need to

fit in and that's no life at all the funny thing is once you take off the mask once you let yourself be vulnerable

you realize it wasn't as scary as you thought the world doesn't end the sky

doesn't fall and the people who matter the ones who truly matter they don't run away

they stay they see you for who you really are and they love you not in spite of it but because of it and isn't

that what everyone's really looking for to be seen to be known to be loved

for who they are not who they pretend to be it's not weakness it's strength the kind of

strength that comes from knowing that you're enough just as you are trust is

such a fragile little thing isn't it people talk about it like it's this unbreakable bond this sacred connection

but in reality it's as delicate as a so bubble one wrong move one tiny pin prick

and it pops leaving nothing but empty air where something beautiful used to be

the thing is trust doesn't just break on its own it's shattered by actions by

choices by betrayal and once it's broken it's never quite the same

again people like to pretend otherwise though they patch it up slap some duct

tape on it and call it good as new but deep down they know they can feel the

cracks the jagged edges even if they don't want to admit it rebuilding trust it sounds Noble doesn't it like some

kind of heroic effort to rest sure what was lost but let's not kid ourselves trust isn't some puzzle you can piece

back together not really once it's gone it leaves this residue a

shadow a question a nagging little voice that Whispers what if it happens again you

can try to ignore it drown it out with promises and reassurances but it's always there lurking just beneath the

surface because trust isn't about words it's about action

and when those actions have been stained no amount of talking is going to wash them clean people love to romanticize

the idea of forgiveness of giving someone another chance of believing that they've changed but trust isn't about

them it's about you it's about whether you can look at them and not see the Betrayal staring back at you it's about

whether you can let your guard down without feeling like a fool for doing it and if we're being honest most people

can they try oh they try but every time they see that person every time they hear their voice it's like a replay of

what happened a broken record that keeps skipping back to the same painful moment and yet people keep trying they

keep putting their faith in people who've already shown they don't deserve it why because they're

afraid afraid of Letting Go afraid of starting over afraid of the emptiness that comes with cutting someone out of

their life they tell themselves that everyone makes mistakes mes that

nobody's perfect that trust can be rebuilt if they just work hard enough but that's

the Trap isn't it the idea that it's their job to fix something they didn't break in the first

place the idea that their worth is tied to their ability to forgive to move on to pretend like nothing ever happened

but here's the kicker trust isn't a gift you hand out to anyone who asks for it

it's earned it's it's built Brick by Brick through consistency through honesty

through actions that match words and once it's broken the person who broke it has to carry the weight of that not you

it's not your responsibility to rebuild the bridge they burn it's not your job to convince

yourself that they've changed that it won't happen again that

you're safe with them because trust isn't just about them proving themselves it's about you feeling it in your bones

in your gut in that quiet place inside you that knows when something's real and

when it's not the funny thing is people often mistake trust for love like the two are interchangeable but they're not

you can love someone and not trust them you can care about them what the best for them even miss them and still know

deep down that they're not someone you can rely on and that's okay loving

someone doesn't mean you owe them your trust it doesn't mean you have to keep giving them chances keep putting

yourself in a position to be hurt again love is complicated messy unpredictable

trust trust is simple it's either there or it's not and when it's not you've got a choice to make you can keep holding on

hoping that somehow things will go back to the way they were that the cracks will heal that the questions will stop

or you can let go you can walk away not out of bitterness or anger but out of self-respect because trust isn't just

about believing in someone else it's about believing in yourself believing that you deserve honesty that you

deserve reliability that you deserve someone who won't make you doubt them at every turn and if that person isn't in

your life right now maybe it's time to make room for them because trust real

trust isn't something you should have to fight for it's something that should

come naturally effortlessly like breathing people love to talk about

closure like it's this magical thing like it's a door you can shut behind you

and walk away from without a second thought they tell you to move on to Let It Go as if it's as simple as flipping a

switch but what they don't tell you is that closure isn't something you find in something you create it doesn't come

gift wrapped with answers or apologies no it comes from staring into

the mess the chaos the unanswered questions and deciding you don't need

everything TI up in a neat little bow to move forward you just have to decide it's

time to stop letting it control you the truth about closure is that it's

a lie people think it's about getting that one final conversation that last

piece of the puzzle that will make everything make sense but what happens when you don't get

it what happens when the person who hurt you doesn't have the decency to apologize or explain or Worse what if

they give you excuses that make it even harder to let go if you're waiting for

someone else to hand you your peace you'll be waiting forever closure isn't about them it's about you it's about

taking all the broken pieces and saying this doesn't need to be fixed for me to move on and yet people cling to the idea

like it's their Lifeline they go back again and again trying to get answers trying to make

sense of what happened they dig through the wreckage hoping to find some some kind of

meaning some reason why things fell apart but the funny thing about wreckage is that it's not meant to be

salvaged it's meant to be left behind you can't build something new while you're still sifting through the ashes

of what's already burned and yet people keep going back hoping that maybe this time they'll find what they're looking

for but closure doesn't come from the person who hurt you it doesn't come from

their words or their actions it comes from realizing that their role in your story is

over and that's okay it's about taking control of your own

narrative deciding that you don't need their permission to move on because waiting for closure is just another way

of giving them power over you letting them dictate how and when you heal and

that's not fair is it why should the person who caused the pain get to decide when it stops people think closure will

make the pain go away but it doesn't work like that pain is isn't something you can erase with a conversation or a

decision it's something you carry with you something that shapes you molds you

makes you stronger and that's not a bad thing pain isn't the enemy it's a

teacher it shows you where your boundaries are where your limits are

where you need to grow it's not something to be feared or avoided it's something to be embraced to be learned

from to be used and maybe that's the real closure the realization that you don't need to tie up every loose end to

move on life is messy it's full of unanswered questions and unfinished

stories and that's okay not everything needs a neat little ending Sometimes the best thing you can

do is walk away not because you have all the answers but because you've decided you don't need them you don't need their

apology you don't need their validation you don't need anything from them to

move forward because your healing isn't about them it's about you it's about

taking all the pain all the confusion all the anger and using it to

build something new something stronger something that's yours it's about reclaiming your power your story your

life because at the end of the day the only person who can give you closure is you not them not their words not their

actions just you standing in the ruins of what wasn't

deciding it's time to start building something new closure isn't an

ending it's a beginning it's not about putting the past behind you it's about carrying it

with you in a way that doesn't weigh you down it's about taking everything you've been through and using it to fuel your

future to shape your path to remind you of who you are and what you deserve it's

not about forgetting what happened or pretending it didn't matter it's about

accepting it owning it and choosing to move forward anyway because at the end

of the day closure isn't about them it's about you funny isn't it how we claim to

the idea that life owes us something that if we put in the work if we endure the pain If We Hold on long enough some

Cosmic force will balance the scales and hand us what we deserve it's a nice

thought isn't it comforting even but life doesn't play fair it

doesn't hand out Justice or rewards on a silver platter it takes and takes and

takes and if you're lucky it might toss you a scrap just to keep you going yet we hold on to this idea of fairness of

Justice because the alternative is too terrifying to face but here's the thing life doesn't owe you anything not

happiness not success not love not closure you can scream into the void shake your fists at the sky demand

answers or recompense but the universe doesn't care it's indifferent cold unfeeling it doesn't care about your

pain your sacrifices your hard work it just keeps spinning oblivious to your struggles to

your cries for fairness and maybe that's the [Music]

cruestv chasing this illusion this Phantom of what they think they're owed

they measure their worth by what they've been given by what they've achieved by what they think they deserve and when

life doesn't deliver when it falls short of their expectations they crumble they fall apart they feel cheated betrayed

like the world has done them some great Injustice but the truth is the world didn't betray them they betrayed

themselves by believing in a Lie by clinging to a myth that was never real

but what if just for a moment you let go of that idea what if you stopped expecting life

to be fair to give you what you think you deserve what if you stop looking at the

world as something that owes you anything at all it's a terrifying thought isn't it to realize that you're

not entitled to anything that everything you have everything you've doped everything you are is yours not because

you deserve it but because you took it claimed it made it your own and that's the secret

isn't it the world doesn't get it takes and if you want something you have to

take it back when you let go of the idea that life owes you something you free

yourself you stop waiting for things to happen for doors to open for

opportunities to fall into your lap you stop wasting time being angry at the world at the people who've wronged you

at the unfairness of it all you realize that the only thing you can control is your actions your choices

your mindset and that's a terrifying kind of Freedom isn't it to know that you're not

a victim of circumstance that you're not at the mercy of some Cosmic force that

the only thing standing between you and the life you want is you but most people

don't want that kind of Freedom it's too much responsibility it's easier to blame the world to point fingers

to wallow in self-pity it's easier to say life isn't fair and that's why I'm

stuck it's harder to look in the mirror and admit that maybe just maybe you've

been standing in your own way that maybe the reason you don't have what you want

isn't because life hasn't given it to you but because you haven't taken it and

that's the trick isn't it to stop waiting to stop

expecting to stop hoping that life will suddenly play by your rules you have to play by its rules you have to learn how

to take the punches how to roll with the hits how to stand up after every

fall and keep moving forward because life isn't fair and it never will be but

that doesn't mean you can't win it just means you have to play smarter harder fiercer it means you have to stop

looking at what you don't have and start focusing on what you can do to get it you have to be relentless

ruthless even not with others but with yourself you have to cut through the

lies the excuses the stories you've been telling yourself about why you're stuck why

you're unhappy why you're not where you want to be you have to face the brutal truth that no one is coming to save you

that no one is going to hand you your dreams on a silver platter if you want it you have to take it you have to fight

for it you have to claw your way through the mess through the pain through the

chaos and claim it as your own and maybe that's the real lesson the one people don't want to

hear that life doesn't owe you anything but you owe yourself everything

you owe yourself the effort the grit the determination to keep going even when it feels impossible you owe yourself the

chance to fail to to fall to get back up and try again you owe yourself the

freedom to stop waiting for life to give you what you want and start taking it with your own two hands because at the

end of the day the only thing you're owed is the life you're willing to fight for